Spending a sunny morning lying lazily on bed,like a sad cat cannot catch any mice,doing nothing apart from being in bad mood and don't even wanna get up to enjoy such a beautiful day.I had nightmares last night,and every night.I know it 'cause my mom heard i talked nonsense while sleeping.So sad i can't remember any beautiful dreams i've had.Freaking nightmares have haunted me for months.I dozed off few hours ago and it's just like that,ugly things just keep appearing when sleeping.
I've got the result of some recent exams and it makes me depressed.Though i know people make mistakes all the time and noone can avoid it,i still feel like something inside of me is broken.I wish i could escape the reality and enter places where i don't have to be myself,where noone is not that easy to be let down and especially where i don't play pretend,i'm happy i say i'm happy and i can say i'm hurt when i'm truly hurt.I hate the feeling when i let someone i love down.It's like you not only hurt them but hurt yourself.I'm not a person of sense,so i usually don't know what to say everytime they disappoint in me.Sadness and depression are always hard to handle.
At any rate,i've got to go ahead 'cause something more important is now on the way.Keep trying and i look forward to a better result.
Chayo.
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